The Wilder side of achieving "Ever after..."

Three years ago, our journey began

Chasing down this cure, no plan in hand

Just your pulse, my racing guide in the dark

Just knowing with conviction from the start

The moment your eyes made an introduction

I felt my second violent breath of life

Flawless to the point of being godly

Yet I fell hard for your imperfections

And now we're slightly weathered, we're slightly worn

Our hands grip together, eye to eye through the storm, yet

I still believe in ever after with you, yeahhhhh

Cuz life is a pleasure with you by my side,

And there ain't no current in this river we can't ride

I still believe in ever after with you

Nothing compares to the good times

Feels like we're floating, when the rest have to climb

You made me believe in love, and not the perfect kind

A real messy beautiful twisted sunshine

Emotions, volcanic eruptions

We both still care, so we're still alive

Tunnel vision, determination

I want you, I want to make it right

You are my twisted sunshine

You are my twisted sunshine

- Ever After by Bonnie Bailey

Life is just a game so...SMILE!

All these things happening (mostly annoying) I came to the point of getting tired of actually reacting to it. I mean, c'mon... let's face it. These things happen ALL THE TIME. Think of it this way "In every cloud of despair, there is this very thin silver lining". Feels good to hear but actually hard to live up to it.I'm not going into this sentimental trip...it's actually the first time I wrote something that is worth prodding of.

Tims and I went to the mall to buy her a headband. She bought 3 of different colors.kkk Well, one for her and the rest are for her sisters. i got no sisters(and brothers) so I got things for my self (hmmm sometimes for my folks)

Isay and I have been talking about my "despedida" plans. I wanted a simple gathering to celebrate the last day of October Fest (free beer!!!) So Eastwood was what I had in mind. But quite hesitant since it's the last leg of the beer fest so there will be a lot of people. And I do mean A LOT.kkk

Anyway, I'm still in the process of finding a new place to stay since I've transferred to a different work force... I hope I can find one fast.

The thing with women going crazy over boy bands...

I've had my share too of being head over heels with SOME boybands. come to think of it, it's the idea of men singing that makes it more appealing. Especially if they can hit those really high notes. Like BBMAK, Josh Groban, and Michael Buble. I can never grow tired of listening to them.

Anyhow, I have passed my resignation letter and by November 7, I'll be working in another company (I'll clue you in next time of the place). Hmmm I hope by christmas, I'm able to buy a laptop...hmmm....

I need a break...from everything!

Let's just say that I missed being at home the whole day on a Saturday. I'll just go to the mall with friends for coffee and a movie or just rent as many DVD's as I can to watch at home. Or better yet, watch all those local TV shows that wouldn't need brain cells (kkk) -just for one day but I'm not gonna resort into watching teletubbies who only know how to say "hello" and "bye bye" .

Anyhow, my mom's going to be back here by February 2006. So, my dad and I might be spending christmas and new year with our other relatives. Well, it could be fun because it's a new deal for us to spend it with other people. But, I hope we could spend it with mom in London...which could be an impossible thing and it will take a miracle for it to happen. Mainly because all 3 of us have work that has different time frames a.k.a makes us work during holidays (huhuhuhu).

Oh well, it's new to me. Everything is...

Faith and I were talking at MSN messenger last Tuesday. She told me about leaving for Dubai next year. I told her that it would be impossible for me so I told her to expect me there 2-5 years from now...long wait.Hahaha but it's ok. I still got these applications for MA to work on, which is on a very tight schedule, gosh I missed sleeping straight without being conscious about an alarm clock ringing by my ears.

Here are a few of the famous lines of Carrie, Samantha, Miranda and Charlotte. (Courtesy of Gen)

1. If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.

2. Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior.

3. If you have ANY doubt in your mind about a man's character, leave him...

4. Allow your intuition (or spirit) to save you from heartache.

5. Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant to be.

6. Don't force an attraction.

7. Slower is better.

8. Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

9. If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as you deserve then heck no you can't "be friends." A friend wouldn't mistreat a friend.

10. Have faith in God regarding your relationship, but don't let faith make you stupid. God does things decent and in order.

11. Don't settle.

12. If you feel like he is stringing you along, then he probably is.

13. If he keeps changing his mind about the relationship—take that as a BIG sign that he is unstable. Do you really want to be with a man like that?

14. Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

15. Honorable men take care of their business and aren't involved in a whole lot of mess.

16. The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

17. There's only one 'reason' a man dumps you; he doesn't want you.

18. Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women. He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you anydifferently?

19. You really do have to kiss a few frogs before finding the prince.

20. Always put yourself and your happiness first.

21. Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

22. Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up.

23. If he doesn't call, he just isn't that interested.

24. Be honest and upfront.

25. Know when to cut the cord, don't be strung along.

26. Don't fall for the "I'm confused role". Remove yourself from the situation to let him figure things out (but don't wait for him, move on).

27. If you want to have a clue as to how he will treat you, watch how he treats the WOMEN in his family (not just his mom).

28. There's more than physical abuse, there's emotional and mental abuse. If he causes any of them...flee.

29. You cannot change a man's behaviors. Change comes from within.

30. Don't let him place rules on you that he is not willing to follow himself double-standard.

31. Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if he has better education or in a better job.

32. Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more nothing less.

33. Demand respect and if he can't give it, he can't have you!

34. Don't compete with other women, but be aware that men are attracted to what they see.

35. If you think he is cheating, he probably is. Confront him right away and if you feel he's lying, leave him.

36. Actions speak louder than words.

37. Never let a man define who you are.

38. Never rely on a man for compliments, look to yourself for that.

39. Never borrow someone else's man.

40. If he cheated with you, he'll cheat on you.

41. Just because he says he loves you, doesn't mean that he won't hurt you and it doesn't mean that you are meant to be with him.

42. To use painful hard-won wisdom --'get it right' the next time.

43. Know that you deserve to be the number one person in the life of the number one person in your life.

44. Love is a verb ...

45. Learn to give up your lifelong task of trying to make someone unavailable-available, someone ungiving-giving, and someone unloving-loving.

46. A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

47. All men are NOT dogs.

48. You should not be the one doing all the bending...compromise is a Two way street.

49. If you don't love yourself...you can't love anyone else.

50. You cannot mend someone else's broken heart.

51. You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage...deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.

52. You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you...a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals...look for someone complementary...not supplementary.

53. Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

54. NEVER give more in a relationship than you are getting out of it.

55. Never become your man's "therapist".

56. When actions and words conflict, believe the actions. Respond to the actions.

57. A real healthy relationship requires two people. One personcan end it -- but it takes two to make it work.

58. Don't fall for the "I'm not the loving type"...when a man loves you there is nothing in this world (within reason) that he wouldn't do for you.

59. Make him miss you sometimes...when a man always know where you are, and you're always readily available to him he takes you for granted.

60. Give him his space...let him go out with his boys, don't pressure him to spend time with you, you can’t force a man to hang out with you.

61. If you wouldn't allow your daughter to be with him you shouldn't.

62. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

63. Never move into his mother's house.

64. Provide financially for yourself and don't depend on anyone.

65. Never co-sign for a man.

66. Never believe you have the perfect guy and he is so innocent.

67. Never spoil your man; let him spoil you.

68. Never let a man mess up your credit.

69. When it's time to let go; let go.

70. Good men should be treated like good men.

71. Don't play games.

72. Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

73. Keep him in your radar but get to know others.

74. Compatibility in terms of educational attainment, values, beliefs, personal and career goals, and socioeconomic status, are important.

75. Never date a guy who wears colored contacts.

My Top 30 thingy's

1. I would love to have a new descent phone either from samsung or motorola.

2. I wish I was as tall as Marion Raven, and as "astig" as Jennifer Garner.

3. I see myself taking up my MA at the University of East Anglia.

4. By the time I reach 25, I'm uber stable with my career and strutting my stuff in a very very very good company.

5. Being able to go to Greece-Santorini Island to be exact-just for a vacation.

6. Going to Korea and explore the whole country-I wanna visit Incheon where the house in "Full House" is standing. Also, if possible, seeing my students,hehe^^

7. Owning a Villa in Italy-Tuscany- and maning my own vineyard.

8. Having a restobar business wid Chester (Pare, aral muna ako ha bgo business hehe)

9. I wud luv to see the people I haven't seen for a very long time...

10. I hope and pray that my hair would be very content with what she is, cuz I'm having a hard time being one...

11. No more byotches in my life...puhlese

12. EPAL Alert!- please just get a life, but not mine

13. See him and settle the score

14. Be an ultimate baduy for one whole day at home by watching those colorful asian teleseries

15. No flirtatious boyfriend-potential boyfriends allowed

16. No flirtatious wanna-be-boyfriends allowed

17. Be flirty and thriving

18. Before I die, I would feast on seafoods and chicken.

19. I hope to watch a decent UAAP game on TV at the comforts of our condo.

20. Mom being able to get the things she really want.

21. Bagging the job i really want and keeping it for a very long time

22. Buying that laptop for my MA needs

23. Owning a pad

24. Actually see myself as the marrying type

25. Or better yet, see myself as a girlfriend type

26. Go back to ice skating

27. Practice horse-back riding

28. Be a good gay-dar hehe

29. A shallow thingy of buying the pink and green cream eye shadow

30. A treat to the spa...haaay