my own hazel eyes: August 2005

Baby Talk

This is really wierd, I know I really adore babies but what the heck is with the "casual"proposal?!

Baby feet, they are the cutest little baby feet...

Now, why am I saying this? Hmm... here's the thing, There's this guy whom I'm friends with since HS. He's at the other side of the world, and I'm here. Fortunately, we managed to keep in touch. Then today, we got into a very serious discussion about the "future", which shifted into the baby section. He asked me what I wanted for a child, so I said I wanted twins. Healthy twins. Just 1 pair is enough. Then all of a sudden he said "let's make one". I laughed it off because it is really ridiculous. Then he got serious saying the he was "dead serious". Then he laughed and asked me what would my parents do if they found out that I got pregnant, so I said they'll be dead right pissed off at me. Then he reacted defensively, and completely ignored me. Really made me guilty. I hope to talk to him tomorrow. This baby thing is really wierd coming out of the blue.

I asked my friend about it, then he said that this baby thing is 75% serious business. Then we got into playing this issue by pretending that I'm getting married and all that stuff. Haha. Really wierd.

Nice to think of...Hard to bear...

I want my future babies to be as cute as them^^

Who were you in your Past Life?

This day is very different. I feel like I'm not suppose to go to work because this day will not go the way I want. Well, payday is the only reason why I HAVE to go to work. Really annoying. I can't wait for the day that I get to say BYE BYE to this place. For a first job, thank you for giving me a dib on what goes on in the real world. The childishness, the corruption, the conning from people which they have the impression of someone they pertain to be naive. Puhlease! Just stop! I didn't bust my a** through how many years of education to be conned by people like Y-O-U. The envy is too much for me to handle. I don't envy people because there is nothing to envy. I am different, they are different.DEAL WITH IT!

I am not mad or anything. I came to the part of my life that I am wanting more. I am wanting what I have worked so hard in college. And by the time I'm 25, I gotta be that person. I gotta feel that contentment. I gotta feel fulfilled, even for a small amount. At least I am fulfilled.

Oh I could say that I'll be all you needBut that would be a lieI know I'd only hurt youI know I'd only make you cry I'm not the one you're needingI love you, goodbye

Getting a li'l romantic?! Nah! Brown-out lang pala...T T

I was looking forward to going home cuz I'm so hungry. I was opting to feast on skyflakes and cheese spread I had for groceries. When I opened the door in the condo, I thought they were all sleeping cuz it's dark. All three-Boots, Chiqui, and Mae- were all awake and restless, but tried to be funny and entertaining at the same time.^^ Blackout! On everything, electricity and water. And that's not all, it doesn't have a guarantee that it will come back the next day. Chiqui, Mae and I were worried because how are we suppose to take a bath before going to work. Especially Mae since she has her monthly visit.

Throughout the night, we were wondering crazy things about taking a bath the next day. We thought of the pool at the roof deck and then going into motels which was really hilarious.

When day break came, Mich-our land lady- came home and was quite upset with the guard. It seems that the blackout was not meant for us but for our next door neighbor who hasn't paid their association dues for a month! Really annoying. It's as if the guards played ini-meeny-miney-moh. How stupid can you possible get?!

Well, what's done is done. We get to have pizza tonight.^^

Kala nyo lang romantic, pero hindi hindi hindi! chos!

Pagkatapos malaglag sa kinauupuan, mag-post tayo! Hehe

I was really not myself today because I had a "Series of Unfortunate Events"- and it's only the beggining. I was late for my class because my computer crashedwhile I was playing around Photoshop. When I got my computer rebooted, I can't get in my room for like 10 minutes, then when I got in, she was already there. Damn! Good thing she was forgiving (Haha).

Then, when Charmaign arrived, she had a computer problem so we looked into it (ala technician ang aura). When the "true" computer whiz came, I was about to go back to my seat, but heck, I fell but first! How embarrasing and funny at the same time. Oh well, alls well ends well.

Here are the things I got really involved to when I'm really bored to death.

My Aussie friend Jennifer Lambell

Jo on Cosmo

Maign on mph

Tet on Seventeen

Yolly on Glamour

Sheree on Allure

Ofcourse! I'm not gonna forget me.^^

Oh man! I'm getting fat everyday. I need to lose wait, inpronto!^^

Indeed, a new life as it begins...

In this day in age, I get to realize that I'm in a tight deadline. I'm 21 and I got to be "settled and content" when I reach 25. In terms of career of course. There are alot of things to consider in taking a job. I decided to get this first job for income reasons. I don't wanna be a bum for at least a week. I could go insane. Now, at least I get to experience earning what I really worked hard for and having my limits and abilities going overboard. But still meeting the same kind of people since birth. It's really funny but I guess I attract those kind of people in my life. Gives me the upper hand in having it easy to get along with them. And not to get along with them at all.

Ofcourse, I don't intend to stay because basically, this is not a stable job. And this is definitely not my calling. But I admit that I enjoyed every moment I stayed here.

My days here in my first job.^^